Tuesday, 16 June 2009
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Post-church camp
I missed my registration time for my medical checkup. So I practically fasted 10 hours for nothing ): I have myself to blame for being so suaku. Papa said I didn't have to fast 10 hours cos as long as my breakfast was digested well, the blood samples wouldn't be affected and my trip tp my optician was also unnecessary.
Comforted myself with the Subway $5.90 meal and finished the two cookies myself. And so it wasn't very comforting.
Slept like a log the entire morning bcos of my endless dreams.
I need to get my running regime going again. It's been 2 weeks.
Church camp from 11 June to 15 June at Palm Garden Resort.
I went with high expectations so I was a little disappointed, I guess.
Thankful for my roommates: Bernice and Kimberly. For the first time, I didn't get to run in the morning and I was always the last to wake up :Pp We had room service the first night and serious talking sessions on the last night. I thank God for their tolerance and patience with me especially the times when I rebelled and was very negative and upset about the sessions.
I was frustrated bcos I came with an expectant spirit to learn more about God and the baptism of the Holy Spirit. Not only did the speaker not start off his sessions with a prayer, he did a 20min story-telling/joke-telling introduction before getting to the point. I understand that some of his jokes had underlying message but I was very sure that MOST were redundant and unnecessary and took up precious time which could have been used to answer our questions and cover the allocated topic substantially. This time, we didn't have our group discussions so it was just purely HIS opinions and HIS insights to the topics.
Nevertheless, I felt that I had myself to blame too because like what Uncle Chee Kong said on the first night, we have a choice in how we want to see and respond to situations. I felt that I could have stopped myself from feeling that way and instead, immerse myself fully in each session. I had put up many barriers before me and I guess that's the reason why I find it so hard to be touched by the Holy Spirit and to worship God freely.
I thank God for the times when I felt the overwhelming sense of the Holy Spirit filling me, touching the areas of my life that I have always ignored and swept under the rug, using people like Aunty Angela & Uncle David to tell me that I should be forgiving her and forgiving myself and forgiving those people who have betrayed my trust, disappointed me and used me.
I thank God that even though I have been negative, He sent people to rebuke me in love and edify me in truth. :D
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